bumming is my forte

yeps i love bumming at home
i don't have much friends
because i realize i just don't put much focus in my life on friends
selfish as it may sound my focus is on me
that's the conclusion that i derived after listening to 100.3 in the office whilst typing away my life
living to me consists of 'cleopatra-ing', watching tv and playing either on the computer or ds
friends in my life just seem to slip away after school ends
yes
i'm 19 and i don't have anyone that i find truly comfortable to talk to
but i do pride myself in being comparatively forthright
yes
i have decided that i shall devote more time to reading and writing random things
and stop trying to analyse how people feel about me and then get all guilty abt being an utter bitch
seriously i'm soo heading towards spinsterdom
but i do think that that suits me just fine
being alone
and doing what i feel like doing
though i do want to have kids
so i'd probably adopt
yes
but as i always remind myself (coz no one talks to me all that much)
you never know what will happen in life
i may die tommorow for all you know
its just life
and it's just me trying deperately to find myself
identity crisis
i realise that's why throughout my whole life i have always felt this hollow feeling
(i know it sounds slightly cliche)
i will find myself someday
but meanwhile i'd just focus on earning money and saving most of it too

~cheerios~